Friday, November 30, 2012

Writing is my forbidden fruit

The best way to motivate me is probably to tell me I can't do it.  Geoffrey Chaucer wrote, "Forbid us something, and that thing we desire."  My mind has been on Shadowed, nonstop since I forbade myself from working on the chapters.  It consumes my mind and this is what happens every time I take a break from working on any book.  And my body tells me that only by working on Shadowed will I find relief.

I've been trying to work on other writing projects.  However, I can't seem to get past Shadowed.  Shadowed.  Shadowed.  It's created a barricade on my mind, keeping me from putting pen to paper for creative fun.  I know that the demand to work on Shadowed will fade, probably by the middle of next week. At that point I won't have a problem working on another story.  But until then, I'm reading books like mad, writing notes down so that I'll know what I'll be changing when I get back to Shadowed--new notes, not the notes that keep repeating in my head like a badly timed mantra. I clean, and sleep, and work. Waiting for the words to cease so I can work on another book, another story, another project.

It could drive someone insane.

But writing will always be my forbidden fruit.

Monday, November 26, 2012

Writing Withdrawal and Why I Suffer

My story is getting closer to being done. One or two more run through and I believe it'll be ready for me to start query processes of publication. Who knows though.  I've said that thousands of times over the years.  I could be far from the mark. Despite feeling I'm close to having it done, I've decided, with some urging from friends, that I'll take a break from Shadowed. I won't edit anything on the novel for at least a month, perhaps longer, which, if you know me, is akin to torture.

I've been working on some version of this story for years. It's really all I know, and although I'm tired of  working on Shadowed I don't want to leave it alone until the story is finished. I have gone an entire month without working on Shadowed before. I don't like doing it.  The moment I say I will take a break from it the ideas on how to improve the story overflow and I am forced to fight the temptation to do more than simply write the ideas down, and store them someplace safe until the month is up.  For me, going a month without working on Shadowed is like going through caffeine withdrawal.  The most painful process is getting through the first three days, and usually by the first week all my symptoms are gone or so weakened that they are easy to ignore.  By then I've settled into another book or project to focus on to past the time.  I believe the last time I took a break from Shadowed, I completely redesigned my website with help from friends. I don't know what my project will be for the month yet, but I doubt it'll be another website project.  I imagine I'll get a TON of reading done however.

Right now, I'm going on break from Shadowed, already aware of about sixteen things that need to be changed in the story. I know how to fix some of them already.  Others I have no clue on how to fix them, but know it needs done.  I figure that by going on break now, I'll have time to come up with solutions for all of them and see more things that need fixed when I re-look over the story a month from now.  A month usually gives me what I call 'fresh eyes' on a piece of writing.  I get a fresh perspective, more distant look, at my work than if I keep looking at the same thing too many times.

So, wish me luck on my writing withdrawal.

Tuesday, November 20, 2012

Birthmarked by Caragh M. O'Brien: A different review

In the future, in a world baked dry by the harsh sun, there are those who live inside the walled Enclave and those, like sixteen-year-old Gaia Stone, who live outside. Following in her mother’s footsteps Gaia has become a midwife, delivering babies in the world outside the wall and handing a quota over to be "advanced" into the privileged society of the Enclave. Gaia has always believed this is her duty, until the night her mother and father are arrested by the very people they so loyally serve.

Now Gaia is forced to question everything she has been taught, but her choice is simple: enter the world of the Enclave to rescue her parents, or die trying.

So every month, or so, a few of my friends and I get together on Skype to discuss writing, whether we're talking about tropes are critiquing a book we've all read.  This time Cyna of You're Killing Me, Ollie of Olivia's Secret Reading Room and I decided to try recording one of these meetings. The podcast is very rough.  We didn't even introduce ourselves at the beginning but I think it turned out well for a first attempt and we are talking about doing this on a semi-regular basis. The project may become bigger than that, but right now no guarantees.  In the below podcast you can listen to what we had to say about Birthmarked by Caragh M. O'Brien. Let me know if there are any topics you would like to see discussed whether via podcast or written.

And I'm back!!!

I've been gone for a while. Time just managed to escape me but I've had a lot going on recently, some of it too personal to say on a public blog, but others are writing-related.  I also suspected my blogging would die down once I was out of school and will probably pick back up when I'm back in school. I haven't gotten a handle on writing a blog semi-regularly yet.

Anyways, to update you on what I've been doing:

I have a freshly edited draft of Shadowed.  Now I can start working on the changes I realized I'd need to make while I was working through this latest draft of Shadowed. Afterwards, I'll go through the draft looking for other things that need changed or written better.

The story has changed so much during this draft that I no longer believe Shadowed is the best title for it, not that it was perfect for the story before the massive changes to the book..  I've continued looking for a new title for the book though and I keep returning to a phrase I used in my book: Land of Blood and Sunlight. Now whether I call it Land of Blood and Sunlight  or  simply Blood and Sunlight, if I use it, I don't know. Any opinions?

One of my friends, Cyna of Your Killing Me, has been working on making a book cover for my story.  Some of you may have already seen the one my mother made. The picture is a scene from Shadowed, which remains relatively unchanged even with the major changes I recently made to it. This one was made primarily of oils.  And came to life after I gave my mother multiple descriptions and searched the internet for hours for pictures that looked similar to the characters I imagined. A lot of emails and back and forth commentary later, we got the result to the right. She left the title off so that should I change the name of the book, as I'm leaning towards doing, I can simply change the title on the computer.  The title and byline  is  my own work.

Cyna is using the computer to make the cover.  The first cover she came up with was nice, very clean, and much more traditional, less artsy, but it didn't feel right to me. I told her what I would like to see changed, sorted through several images with her and saw the rough draft of the new cover today. I like this version much better.  Their were a few things I asked to have changed and we sorted through images again.   I'm looking forward to seeing the final product.  Once the cover is complete, I'll probably post it here for viewing.

For those who are curious both my mother and Cyna are always willing to discuss the possibility of working on other projects. Both of them have an eye for imagery that I envy and have patience. I may be prejudiced, but I'd recommend either of them for projects.

In January 2013, I become Vice President of Communications for the Coeur du Bois chapter of Romance Writer's of America. This will be an interesting new challenge for me as I've only had training in communications. I'll also be starting another semester in school in May, which will end in October, and working as many hours as I can at my job, while working toward my writing goals. Phew.  I'm exhausted just thinking about it. But I'm looking forward to it.

Lately, I've been consuming books like chocolate and got together with a few friends to discuss one of them.  You'll see the results of that discussion on tomorrows post.  I hope you enjoy the change in presentation.